Friday, June 30, 2006
Suzanne, Kiera, Kiera’s friend Erica, Ian, Elijah, and I will be heading to Parry Sound tomorrow morning. Saturday is Dominion Day, also known as Canada Day or Canadian Independence Day, and I plan to conduct the second round of water testing on Monday after the flurry of long weekend recreational activity abates. This is the optimal time to take water samples and will highlight the impact humans have on the fragile ecosystem of Georgian Bay Thirty Thousand Islands area. Pop would certainly approve. Given his stability, we are comfortable with heading north and will be just five hours away should anything happen. It seems to be a good time to take a break from things and I’m looking forward to getting back to our beloved South Channel. Mom will be staying at our home while we’re away and will keep us updated with Pop’s condition. This will give both her and Johanna some much needed quiet time to recharge their batteries.
Brenda Lind will be undergoing surgery tomorrow to repair her broken kneecap. As we sit by the fire at the cottage this weekend, I won’t be able to keep from occasionally thinking about Brenda’s now famous line “Watch it burn!”, which she uttered as one of Pop’s primo pieces of hardwood was thrown onto the campfire at the cottage. Pop has become a connoisseur of fine firewood and thinks that junky pine is the only wood suitable for an outside campfire which you roast marshmallows on. Although he is generally a good sport about all of us descending on his cottage and disturbing the tranquility of his island paradise, that time he really expressed his displeasure with us burning up his “good wood” for such folly. Later on, we all had a good laugh about that night (including Pop) and the tale has become that of family legend. Good luck Brenda with your surgery tomorrow.
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At Fri Jun 30, 11:49:43 PM, Anonymous said…
Yvonne is back from a wet week at Episcopal Church Creation Week and she asked how "Mr.T" is doing.. I showed her the blog site and I am sure she will be reading it tomorrow after she get some sleep!
Stan you'd want to run if you had to listen to "her type" of music!!
We will get together for a real campfire (the Bowden's can speak for me.. I love the smell of campfire and fireplaces no matter how hot it may be!!)
Always, LOVE AND PRAYERS,
Carol, Yvonne and YoYO
Also, We are using dial-up so if anyone needs to reach one of us.. Please use the cell number!
Thursday, June 29, 2006
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At Thu Jun 29, 07:05:18 PM, Anonymous said…
It sounds like your pop's stats are getting better and better, Lance. I'm sure you are all getting anxious for him to become more alert and to be able to communicate with him. Patience is tough after all this time and such a long roller coaster ride, I'm sure! Hang in there....your postings are fabulous and I can't wait till Stan is well enough to read them (and probably groan at some of them!)
Love and Prayers,
The Bowdens
Pop had a more difficult time breathing and staying saturated last night, so the doctors put him on an IV of Propofol, a short-acting intravenous anesthetic, to help calm things down. It seems to have done the trick, as they have discontinued the Propofol drip and he is resting comfortably and doing well this morning. The rash on his arm is starting to clear up and things are on track for another round of dialysis today. Yesterday, the nursing staff made a point of telling us that Pop is finally relatively stable after a couple of bumpy weeks. This is good news. Fight, Channel Man, fight!
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At Thu Jun 29, 12:54:12 PM, Anonymous said…
I've known the Toppings since before the days of the "Purple Puzzle Tree". I never knew Stan to give in to anything health wise. I recall days he used a ladder to straighten up his back. I have no doubt in my mind he'll walk out of this as well, up another ladder and triumph.
Hugs and Prayers to all the Toppings and their families as this is a tough time for y ou all but one that you will get through.
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Wednesday, June 28, 2006
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Another medical tragedy has befallen friends and family today. Brenda Lind, one of Johanna’s dearest friends and a close friend of the Topping family, fell and seriously broke her patella today and is now one of the walking (or not walking) wounded. Brenda has been a constant supporter of Channel Man Stan and our family during this difficult time and has been a regular at the hospital. Her presence there will be missed (until she shows up there on crutches sometime, that is). Our prayers go out to Brenda for a speedy recovery.
I wanted to say one other thing in relation to Kiera’s high school graduation. Before Pop got sick, he strongly expressed to Mom that he wanted to buy Kiera something for her graduation that she would have forever and that would be a keepsake remembrance given from them in celebration of her accomplishment. Mom had other ideas, but Pop won out and bought her a pair of beautiful aquamarine and diamond earrings, which Mom presented to her at her luncheon on graduation day. This is so typical of Pop. Channel Man has good taste in jewelry, and Kiera was delighted with her gift and cherishes them.
Goodnight Pop. Goodnight World. Goodnight Moon.
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At Wed Jun 28, 05:28:30 AM, Anonymous said…
Hope you all had a quiet evening..
Lance.. Thank so much for the wonderful updates.
Go, Stan, Go!! One breath at a time and you'll be shouting at the dogs in the NH field in time!
Brenda.. you deserve some time off now, so take a rest too. Crutches can be fun so soak up the attention!
Purrs to Sounder.
GBYSO!
Carol, Yvonne and YoYo in Hornell
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
I just got back from the hospital where Pop is undergoing dialysis and things are going well. He is awake. Yes, awake! He is still in quite a foggy state, but his eyes are open and he can move them, and he is responsive to people around him and can respond somewhat to questions by blinking his eyes. His blood pressure and respiratory function are good, and his intestinal tract is unstoppable at this point (at least I’m sure that’s what his nurse thinks!). The doctors will be aiming at removing 4.5 liters of fluid during his treatment and will clean his blood again as well, as there is a full schedule of ICU dialysis patients lined up for tomorrow. The current plan is to skip treatment for Pop tomorrow to give someone else a turn. He currently weighs in at a hefty 404 lbs, but will probably be about 10 lbs lighter than that about three hours from now if the dialysis treatment goes as planned.
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At Tue Jun 27, 09:13:47 PM, Anonymous said…
I know just what you mean about the sneaky nature of the "roller coaster ride". Hang on tight, and we'll keep on praying! One question I had after reading your posting the other night, Lance. Were you able do anything to cool the old man down the other night, after he signaled you by blinking that he was too hot? Brad was always too hot in hospitals too, and we kept a fan clipped right at his bedside, even in the ICU, which helped him alot. Brad says, those "hot" nurses don't help matters any lol! We'd give him a break once in awhile with a male nurse, so he could cool off! Love to all.......Pam and the Bowden family
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At Tue Jun 27, 09:25:27 PM, Chief Wonk said…
Pam,
The nurse turned down the heat on Pop as soon as I told her what had happened. She was excited to know that the staff could sucessfully communicate with him in that way. I will tell her when I see her again that I wanted to demonstrate to Pop that he still could have a say in some things. At the same time, I want the staff to do whatever is in the best interest of Pop's treatment, which may include keeping him toastier than he'd like, if that's what's best for him.
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Sounder is doing better this morning and continues to improve as well. He isn’t quite as zippy as usual, but seems to still be on the mend like his owner.
Monday, June 26, 2006
I got some excitement in the ICU today when I first got in to see Pop. Mom was there and Pop had a sheet pulled over him and tucked in on all sides with a warm air blower blowing air under it. I felt his foot and it was very warm, and I know his body tends to “run hot” at the cottage as he frequently goes around with shorts and no shirt on. When I got next to his side I started talking to him like I usually do, and then his eyes popped open. Not the kind of open like you’re squinting or staring out in space, but he had his eyes pretty wide open and he was focusing on me and trying to follow me when I moved with his eyes. Mom was surprised and watched as I told Pop where he was, what had happened to him, about the graduation and anniversary weekend, and doing water testing in Parry Sound. During this time he kept his eyes open, moving them and blinking occasionally, and he seemed to understand and respond to what I was saying.
The real excitement came when I explained the “tent” over him and asked him if he was too warm. I told him to blink his eyes once if he was too warm and wanted me to have the nurse turn down the heater. I was in complete disbelief when he immediately blinked both eyes closed once and then back open again. Mom saw all this and got excited too. To make sure it wasn’t a fluke, I told him I wanted to confirm that he understood me and again I repeated the question, asking him to blink once and only once if he was too hot. He then deliberately blinked his eyes once again. Mom and I were about ready to dance around the room at that point, as this was the first time in a month that we have had two-way communications with him. I am confident that this wasn’t a fluke and will ask him to blink twice for something when I see him again later today. Go Pop Go!
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At Mon Jun 26, 12:16:22 PM, Anonymous said…
Good news on all fronts, Lance. Good luck Stan with the de-Michelinizaton project. How embarrassing would that be if you and Sounder couldn't fit into your boat?
We send our best wishes to Stan and also to his unfailingly faithful and loving cheering squad.
Neil, Louise and Harry (who sends his own wet best wishes to Sounder)
My Mom enjoyed a delicious relaxing meal with us tonight in celebration of Mom and Pop’s anniversary. She was in good spirits and headed to Johanna’s afterwards with Sounder. Thanks Mom, for making the delicious strawberry rhubarb pie! I think everyone will sleep well this night.
During the three and a half hour saga with Sounder at the animal hospital today, they finally ended up giving him a bolus of fluids to fight his dehydration. This was injected under the skin of his back and sides, and could easily be felt with your hand when touching him. It was cold and sort of like a water balloon. Then it hit me! Did you ever see pictures of people and their dogs that highlighted the fact that many pet owners choose pets that bear some resemblance to them? Pop’s dog Sounder suddenly seemed to have a lot in common with Pop. Today, Sounder was Michelin Dog!
Sunday, June 25, 2006
I didn’t get a chance to do my normal morning blog post today because a new crisis was breaking that needed my immediate attention. Mom called me from Johanna’s house around 8:30 AM after she got back from the hospital and asked for my help with their almost 10 year old Golden Retriever named Sounder. Sounder had been vomiting violently and my mom needed to get him medical attention fast. Sounder has been diagnosed with and is undergoing treatment for Addison’s disease, which is the common name for hypoadrenocorticism, or adrenal insufficiency. I called the 24 hour emergency animal hospital to let them know we were on our way and raced over to Johanna’s house to pick up Mom and Sounder, and off we went to the dog hospital. Sounder was quickly triaged when we arrived, but vomited violently several more times there in the office, with a deep elephant roar sound (as accurately described by Mom).
The veterinarian on staff ran blood and urine diagnostic lab work, did an abdominal x-ray, and met with us to discuss the situation. She explained that she believed Sounder was reacting to his disease and was under additional stress due to being in unfamiliar surroundings and on a strange schedule, and also probably was missing Pop. She offered hospitalization as an option, but we decided that Sounder would be less stressed if he was at home if that was at all possible. The veterinary hospital staff gave Sounder injections of the steroid he is on to treat Addison’s, another injection to stop the vomiting, and they gave him a bolus (I sure didn’t think I would run into that word in a different context from Pop’s illness so soon) of fluids to help fight his dehydration. Sounder is resting at our house right now and my mom is busy here baking fresh strawberry rhubarb pies. I can’t wait to get a bite. Mom makes a killer pie crust!
Pop’s condition has improved slightly today compared to last night, which is not very hard to do given his situation, but at least things are heading in the right direction again. His blood pressure and heart rate are up slightly and his blood oxygen saturation is excellent. The doctors have discontinued the infusion of norepinephrine for the time being, as his blood pressure is ok for now, but that may change if they perform dialysis today. His abdomen is still distended and they are giving him drugs to help the situation, but the excess pressure in his intestinal tract is the biggest concern for the time being. Hang in there Pop!
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At Sun Jun 25, 08:10:05 PM, Anonymous said…
Dearest Toppings,
May God bless your anniversary.
My heart goes out to you and Sounder today. I remember Sounder as a pup and young dog. What a sweetie.
I also remember picking rhubarb from my back yard and bringing it into Hornell to be transformed at Carol's hands into a strawberry/rhubarb delight. Surely it has only improved over the years.
My prayers are with you all.
Gwen Freeman
Saturday, June 24, 2006
One of the things the doctors are doing to treat Pop’s current condition is to decrease the sedation and pain medication he is under. This evening, that had the uplifting effect having him move and open his eyes in direct response to our being there. Johanna and Mom both saw him open his eyes briefly as they were talking to him, and I saw some eye movement when I was interacting with him in the room. We are confident that he is somewhat aware of what is going on and that his eye movements are a result of the combination of lower sedation and external stimuli, like our visits and being regularly moved from side to side and back again. Pop’s heart rate is dangerously low and his blood pressure is being kept elevated with the help of norepinephrine, but he is still hanging in there. Fight, Channel Man, fight!
Once again, congratulations Kiera! Your Grandpa would be proud.
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Johanna just got off work and called from the hospital a little while ago with an update on Pop. A gastroenterologist was consulted on Pop’s bloated abdomen and determined that with problem lies with gas build-up in his intestinal tract. The two options for treatment are a drug based treatment, or a colonoscopy. The doctors would prefer to use drugs, but because of his general instability and low blood pressure have decided that a colonoscopy is the route they will take. The procedure is scheduled to be performed around 4:30 PM today and carries about the same amount of risk as the tracheotomy they performed under less than ideal conditions. The main risks of the colonoscopy are the possibility that the procedure could cause a perforation in his intestine, and that fact that they have to roll him on his side to perform it and this typically causes him to destabilize as far as his heat rate, blood pressure, and blood oxygen saturation levels go. We are all heading over to the hospital to be there for the procedure and are keeping our fingers (and toes) crossed.
Kiera is all dressed in her cap and gown and we are off to her graduation. Congratulations Kiera! We are all extremely proud of you.
Friday, June 23, 2006
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My daughter Kiera (Channel Man Stan’s granddaughter) will be graduating from high school tomorrow morning, and this weekend the focus will be on her. Kiera has just finished up a very successful senior high school year and has been accepted at the University of Rochester. She is enrolled there for the fall semester and is very excited about the college experience. Kiera also applied for and was accepted into the REMS program at the U of R. REMS is an acronym for Rochester Early Medical Scholars, which is a fairly elite program for pre-med students at the U of R. She was one of 10 students selected out of a very competitive field of over 1,000 applicants, and realizes that being chosen as a REMS student is a very big honor. Kiera plans on attending medical school at the U of R and the REMS program guarantees her acceptance into the U of R School of Medicine, as long as she successfully makes it through her undergraduate years of study and maintains a reasonable grade point average. No medical school applications. No MCAT exams. No stress about getting into a medical school. It looks like Kiera is on the path to being a doctor.
We are extremely proud of Kiera and her accomplishments and wish her the best as she begins her college education and future career in medicine. Congratulations Kiera!!!
Thursday, June 22, 2006
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We are now rounding a sharp turn on the roller coaster...
Dr. Morgan also said Pop’s renal output had slowed and that the diuretic Lasix did not seem to be effective at increasing it. However, she said that this is a normal side effect of a secondary infection and that they will remove excess fluid through dialysis today. The current plan is to move forward with the tracheotomy this afternoon, provided he doesn’t suffer any additional setbacks. Dr. Hirokawa, the surgeon who will be performing the tracheotomy, will be consulting with the medical staff in the ICU this afternoon and then making the decision as to whether the “trach” can be safely done given Pop’s condition at that time. The doctors firmly believe that a tracheotomy will help improve his respiratory function significantly.
Pop was back on the paralytic Atricurium tonight, but the Attending Physician told my mother today this was a strategy to help lower the pressure settings on the ventilator so they could perform a tracheotomy soon, hopefully tomorrow. The doctors would like everything to be optimal when they do the “trach”, but they feel with increasing urgency that the benefits of getting a tracheotomy outweigh the risks of doing one, even if the conditions aren’t perfect. I suspect they will move to complete the procedure tomorrow unless they really feel his body can’t take it. We are hopeful that this will help him get onto the fast track the track to recovery.
Hang in there, Pop. We are all here for you.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
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At Wed Jun 21, 05:34:50 PM, Anonymous said…
How ironic that Stan is now getting precious blood that he has so unselfishly given for so many years! Carol, you've probably heard this a thousand times, but is there anything I can do for you from this end? Do you need anything done to the house in Hornell, etc.? Love you all.....
Love, Sharyn Oakes
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
I finished compiling the South Channel water quality testing data from the June 17, 2006 sampling and have posted the numbers on the South Channel website. The results can be viewed by clicking on the ‘2006 Water Quality Data’ link which can be found at Water Quality Sampling.
Channel Man Stan hit a small bump on the roller coaster last night. Yesterday, they suctioned mucus plugs from his lungs to help clear his airways and improve his blood oxygen saturation and overall lung function. During the night his saturation level dropped, so they had to increase the settings on his ventilator and temporarily put him back on the paralytic to suction his lungs some more. However, he’s off the paralytic again this morning and they are starting the lower the “vent” settings again and will be decreasing them throughout the day. Because of this minor setback, the doctors have decided to wait until later this week (possibly tomorrow) to perform the tracheotomy.
Monday, June 19, 2006
Pop continues to improve and his kidneys have been kicked into high gear, so his fluid is output is good on its own today, without the assistance of the dialysis machine. Lasix and albumin seem to be the magic cocktail. Go, Pop, Go, literally! Dr. Hirokawa, a top surgeon at Highland Hospital, consulted with the ICU staff this afternoon about the details of the tracheotomy and it was decided that hey will do it tomorrow in his room in the ICU. Overall, things look stable and seem to be on the correct trajectory.
The final “push” is underway and I hope to leave the cottage around 7:15 PM. I’ll try and post again after I get home with the latest update.
I’m busy packing up things and preparing for the big “push” later today for the trip home. The just power came back on at 9:10 AM this morning. This is reassuring, as I didn’t feel comfortable leaving without knowing for sure all the lights and electrical devices here at the cottage were in a “turned off” state. Having the power go off is a regular part of having a cottage in Georgian Bay. In our situation, it’s not really so bad since we use propane for our cooking and most of our hot water, and our water system is gravity fed. I pumped our water tank full as soon as thunderstorms threatened yesterday just in case we lost power. I guess I chose wisely.
The report from the hospital was pretty much the same as last night. Pop is still slowly improving and stable. The pressure settings on his ventilator were lowered slightly (IP 65, PEEP 16) and the FiO2 level is still at 40%. The doctors are expected to be late making their rounds today. Since this is a Monday, it will take extra time for the weekend crew to turn things over to the weekday shift. The ICU staff is preparing to perform a tracheotomy on Pop sometime this week. Although this sounds extreme, it’s really a normal step in the slow process of weaning a long term ventilation patient off the ventilator entirely. Having an intubation tube inserted down your throat is very uncomfortable and requires much more effort when breathing. Doing a tracheotomy will lessen the stress from these things and allow the doctors to decrease the sedation Pop is under, so thay can slowly start to wake him up. Click on this link for more information about a Tracheotomy.
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At Mon Jun 19, 12:52:19 PM, Anonymous said…
I am glued to the Southchannel blog many times a day to hear the progress of Stan and the family too. Lance your telling of life at the cottage has made a brief respite from the dire and improving news of your Dad. How I miss all of you. Suzanne must be a saint with you so preoccupied with this situation and your trip(s) to the cottage. I appreciated reading Stan's thoughts that you shared yesterday. We all glean a bit of information from the Carroll's when we are at coffee hour. Yesterday, added a new chapter at Christ Church with the addition of Fr. Gramley. I shouldn't be quite so inclusive I should say at the Tri-Parish, but with no vehicle to get to Trinity or St. Peter's it is Christ Church that I think of. You are doing a magnificient job with this blog of keeping us all informed. I loved your comments from McLaren Island. I have to wonder where on the island you are though and what it looks like (pictures). I do know where the island is though. Please give my best to your Mom and Johanna. Tell everyone my prayers are with all of you: Lance and your family, Johanna and her son, and Carol (including brothers and sisters of your parents).
Hugs and prayers,
Anne Coddington
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Channel Man Stan had a good day today and is having a good night. Laura is his nurse tonight, and she said he is doing well and continues to slowly improve. His vital signs are still holding solid and a new combination of diuretics is working like a charm helping him output fluid. Happy Father’s Day Channel Man, you ol’ pisser. Sleep tight, and get well soon!
Weather-wise, it has been a changeable day here on the channel. It started hot and sunny with a bit of a haze, much like parts of yesterday. Early this afternoon a thunder-boomer came quickly through and we had heavy rain for a bit less than half an hour. The rain was needed and welcome, and helped cool things off a little. It is currently a comfortable 23.5°C (74°F) with overcast skies above. With much success, I finished up the water testing today and am in the process of compiling the results. Kineras Bay wins this time for having the cleanest water, with almost no detectable coliforms and no E. Coli. I will post the complete results on the South Channel website sometime tomorrow or Tuesday.
Even though it’s Father’s Day, I wanted to pay a small tribute to my mother. People keep asking me how she is holding up, and my response has been nothing but positive. Throughout this whole ordeal with my father, my mom has just been fantastic. She has been strong, determined, upbeat, and has shown grace under fire. She has also displayed her usual sense of organization and “take charge”, which anyone who knows would instantly recognize. She has been by Dad’s side as much as possible, but has still found time to be a good mother and grandmother. I applaud her, as she’s quite a lady. We love you Mom. We’re here for you, so keep hanging in there.
The last words Pop said to me as he was lying in the ICU at St. James Hospital in Hornell was, “Don’t worry. Channel Man will be back before you know it.” I believed him, and I’m going to hold him to his word.
Today is Father’s Day. Happy Father’s Day Pop! We love you. You have cared for us throughout the years and imparted to us your wisdom, hardheadedness, and sometimes opinions, but you have been a good father and we honor you on this day, and on every day.
My sister shared some writing Dad did for a meditation for Trinity Episcopal Church, in Canaseraga, NY, on March 25, 2001, for the service of Lent IV. Trinity is the church back home where my parents attend and are heavily involved in. His writing was based on a passage in the Bible from the book of Isaiah.
Isaiah 59:1-15a. “Behold, the Lord’s hand is not shortened, that it cannot save, or his dull ear, that it cannot hear.
It is your own iniquities that raise a barrier Between you and your God.
Dad’s writings on this topic follow below and seem to have been perfectly made for Father’s Day and the way he taught us to approach life. One of Dad’s strongest messages is that we all have free will and that it is incumbent on us to choose wisely. Dad’s writings on his thoughts on this topic, in verbatim, are as follows:
I love the story about the person who cries ceaselessly, “Why me, O Lord, why me? O why me?” On and on. Finally an answer comes booming out of the clouds, “BECAUSE YOU IRRITATE ME!”
This story illustrates for me, how easy it is to assume that the deficiencies in particular situations belong to the Almighty rather than to us. How can we really think the lord was unable to change the situation?
Maybe he wants us to change it. And maybe he wants us to live our way through it, trusting that he is at our side at every moment. At every single moment. How can any one of us think that the ruler of the universe had a momentary bout of deafness as we were saying our prayer? Or is it possible that god is now waiting for us to listen for His response? The response that He has been giving us all along.
And what about this: Is it possible that we really do irritate God? Well, we most likely do, I suspect. I know that my children irritated me from time to time, even as my grandchildren do now. (And vice versa, of course). This is not to imply that my children don’t still manage to irritate me from time to time. But my irritation with them has always been minor compared to my love for them. So, I have always been there for them, at least in the long run of things. And they have always known that, in the long run of things. And according to them I have been a very good parent. In the long run of things.
And now, we have to believe that god is even better at parenting than I am.
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Lance, what a beautiful Father's Day gift you have given us all with your dad's wise words and your continued love and support. Please give our love to your mom and Johanna and tell that Pop of yours to keep up the good fight. Doug Carroll told us in church today that they are talking about doing a tracheotomy soon and I wanted to be sure you weren't discouraged about that. When Brad had his after back surgery, I felt it was a giant step backwards, and I couldn't have been more wrong. Not having to work so hard to breathe around that darn ventilator tube makes alot of difference! So keep positive, and let your dad know that everything that is being done is going to help make his recovery easier. Prayers are continuing from the Bowdens, as always.
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Saturday, June 17, 2006
This evening there is a chorus of frogs and peepers serenading the night, while a loon sings his eerie “loon-song” from across the bay. The honking of geese can also be heard occasionally from the beach area. The sounds of the channel are soothing and I will sleep well tonight.
Mom called with a final evening update and said that Channel Man is still stable and hanging in there. His vital signs are good and he is resting comfortably. Sleep well Pop, and you too Mom.
I just got off the phone with my mom with the report from the hospital. Dad had a pretty good day. He is stable with no fever and his vital signs are good. The dialysis treatment went well and lifted another 3 liters of fluid from the Michelin Man. The doctors treated him with a different antibiotic to fight his secondary infection, and they believe they have it on the run. He opened his unfocused eyes twice while my mom was there, in what was probably somewhat of a reflex response. The first time was when Mom told him I was at the cottage doing his water testing. The second time was when the nurse washed his hair and she and my mom were trying to comb it out so it would “look nice”. He has always said he hates being “messed with” like that. The doctors say sometimes patients remember snippets of things that happen when they are largely unconscious. Only time will tell.
My father and the Topping family would like to thank everyone for their outpouring of kindness, caring, blog comments, offers of assistance, and most of all prayers. This is a very difficult time for our family. However, with all of our friends and family at our side, we will get through this. Thank you all for your love and support.
I spoke with Roseanne at the ICU, Pop's nurse this morning, and she reported that his condition is much the same as last night. He is stable and has no fever. The doctors are busy doing their rounds and are congregating outside his room to discuss his prognosis and treatment plan for the day. He will be getting dialysis sometime later, but whether they will attempt to remove more fluid from his body is unknown at present.
I have assembled all the equipment for my water testing excursion, and feel I have all my ducks in a row. I will be leaving momentarily to begin my sampling rounds.
Friday, June 16, 2006
There is opaque cloud cover tonight, with rumbles of thunder and faint flashes of lightning in the distance. However, this is the way of weather in the Thirty Thousand Island area, and by no means portends a dreary day for tomorrow. The temperature is 24 C (75 F) and there is a light wind from the southwest, which helps keep the mosquitoes and other insect pests at bay. A light to moderate rain tonight would make for ideal water testing conditions tomorrow morning.
Mom reported that Dad is doing about the same tonight. His vital signs are stable, but the doctors believe he has contracted a secondary infection from being on the ventilator so long. They are treating him with additional antibiotics and he seems to be responding. His dialysis session went well today and they removed another 3 liters of excess fluid from his system. Hang in there Channel Man.
Channel Man Stan continues to slowly improve today. His nurse reports that his vital signs are solid and this has been a good day for him. We are all encouraged with his progress and are hopeful that the trend continues. However, we also remain mindful that we are riding the ICU roller coaster.
My trip north to the cottage went without a hitch. I am especially pleased that I seem to have beaten the mad rush of cottagers heading up from Toronto. The bay is alive tonight, with regular boat traffic every few minutes as people head out to their South Channel retreats in anticipation of a banner weather forecast for a beautiful weekend. The natural beauty of this place is beyond description. Channel Man will kick himself for missing out on this one.
I am assembling equipment and notes in preparation of starting water testing tomorrow morning for the 2006 season. On my way into town, I stopped by the Township of The Archipelago offices and picked up ColiPlates and documentation for the new testing protocol to be used this season. Unfortunately, Greg Mason was unexpectedly called out to do a last minute inspection this afternoon, so I didn't get a chance to meet with him in person. However, I left the cottage phone number at his office and he called me here to discuss the new procedures. I feel confident that I will be able to temporarily step into Channel Man's size 13 shoes and get the job done to his satisfaction. It's good to be "home".
I'm am leaving for Parry Sound in a few minutes and will be meeting with Greg Mason this afternoon to prepare for water testing. I will be unable to update the blog until this evening, but check in then for a posting live from Seven Mile Narrows on the South Channel itself!
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At Fri Jun 16, 10:38:24 AM, Anonymous said…
Lance,thanks for the updates and drive carefully today.John and I are at the cottage(next door to Brent W's in Kineras Bay) and if you need any help with things at the cottage please pop round and you only have to ask.Give our love to Carol and Stan and we are still praying for you all
John & Annette P
Goodnight Pop. Hang in there, you tough old bird.
Thursday, June 15, 2006
I thought it wasn't fair that only the night shift got good munchies, so I dropped off submarine sandwiches for the ICU staff at lunch time to show our appreciation for their support and efforts taking care of Dad.
I have made arrangements to go to the cottage in Parry Sound tomorrow and through the weekend to check on things and take care of unfinished business, like disposing of garbage that has been there for 3 weeks and getting my parents boat to town. I will also be meeting with Greg Mason, the Planner for the Volunteer Water Monitoring Program for the Township of The Archipelago. Greg will be giving me an update on the new testing protocol that is being used in this year's program and providing me with documentation. I plan on doing water testing on Saturday and should have the results on Sunday, the perfect Father's Day gift I could ever get for Channel Man Stan. If he could speak, I'm absolutely certain this is what he would want.
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
This evening at about 11:00 PM, I went to McDonald's and bought the ICU staff some food from the Mickey-D's Dollar Menu; 10 double-cheeseburgers, 5 chicken sandwiches, 5 chicken fajitas, and a bunch of salads and fixings. The ICU staff were very appreciative and expressed their gratitude. I wanted to recognize their professionalism and attentiveness, and express my appreciation for their support of my father. Thank you to the Highland Hospital ICU Staff.
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At Thu Jun 15, 08:16:28 AM, Anonymous said…
The Topping family will stand out amongst the multitudes that they care for. Not just for the food that they provide, but for their level of involvement and the care that they take not to be unreasonable in their interactions with staff.
I know this because I'm an acute care nurse and I've gotten a pretty clear picture of the dynamics from Lance and his mom. We appreciate families like them - - and yes, the food doesn't hurt when we're without too many options at 3 am --- hmmm...leftover chicken or something yummy loaded with salt, fat, and sugar (the three essential food groups on nights).
----- Greg
BTW: Mr. Topping was more than just a childhood friend's dad. Our families grew up in the same church. My dad died when I was very young, and I interacted with and observed Mr. Topping more than any other adult male/father. I'm sure some vicarious learning of his parenting style took place. Count one more person on this planet praying for his speedy recovery.
Channel Man's condition is still stable this afternoon. He underwent dialysis today and they removed one liter of excess fluid with no complications. He has lost over 30 lbs of water weight in the last several days and now weighs in at a hefty 370 lbs! (his normal weight is around 250 lbs) As extreme as it sounds, this is a normal part of the ICU patient experience. The motto in the ICU is, "You've gotta swell, to get well!" And swell, he did!
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At Wed Jun 14, 03:24:39 PM, Anonymous said…
Lance,
Thank you so much for keeping this blog so I don't have to keep bugging the Carrol's about Stan's condition.
Carol & Stan,
I think about you both every day. I have loved you both for many years and I hate to see you go through this. Carol - get rest when you can; Stan - hang in there and fight this and get well. You know I am praying for you all....
Love, Sharyn Oakes
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
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Lance, my prayers are with you all. I have been keeping track of your dad for some time now through friends and the blog, and have added his name to the prayer list at St. John's, Ithaca. Please give my love to your mom. She sat with me at Highland a number of years ago...and I remember well how I appreciated her quiet strength. Gwen Freeman
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Monday, June 12, 2006
The 2005 water quality results and program review reports are now available and have been posted in PDF format on the South Channel website. They can be viewed by following this link 2005 Water Quality & Environmental Report and Program Review.
The inspiration pressure (IP) is the pressure used to inflate the lungs on each breath. The positive end-expiratory pressure (PEEP), is a special setting on the ventilator that keeps the lungs expanded to help get oxygen from the lungs into the bloodstream. Click on this link for more information on Mechanical Ventilation. Pop is currently being ventilated using positive pressure controlled ventilation (PCV), but this mode will probably be changed as he starts to breathe more on his own.
Sunday, June 11, 2006
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At Mon Jun 12, 10:43:26 AM, Anonymous said…
Hi Lance
We just found out about Stan this weekend (from Brent W) as we had been out of the country.Our prayers are with you all and olease give your Mum our love.Also if there is anything we can do for you at the cottage please let us know.Your Mum has our email address and telephone number so please don't hesitate to call or write.
Give your Dad a hug from us.
God bless you all
Annette & John P
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We tried phoning last night but figured you must all be at the hospital
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Saturday, June 10, 2006
I spoke with Greg Mason at the Township of the Archipelago in Parry Sound this morning. Greg is the Planner for the Volunteer Water Quality Program for the Township and is conducting a 2006 season volunteer kick-off meeting this afternoon at 1:00 PM that Pop was planning on attending. Dr Karl Schiefer, a regional expert on water quality, is expected to be on hand to discuss water quality reports and answer questions.
Just before Pop was moved to the ICU in the hospital in Hornell, he asked if I would be returning to Parry Sound the weekend of June 10th and whether I could attend the water quality workshop on his behalf. I fully expected to do be able to do that for him, but given Pop's current condition I cannot. I asked Greg if I could conference call in this afternoon to the meeting, but he couldn't work out the logistics to make that happen and offered to meet with me individually the next time I'm in Parry Sound. I am making preparations to assume Pop's water testing responsibilities until he is able to do so, and am committed to serving in this capacity and supporting our love of the South Channel and related environmental causes on his behalf.
Friday, June 09, 2006
Upon our return I spoke with Pam, Pop's nurse for tonight's ICU shift. Pam reported that Pop's condition was about the same this evening and that he was receiving his nightly dose of itraconazole when I called. He appears stable, his blood pressure is good, and his SpO2 (blood O2 Sat) is hovering around 96%, so they lowered the FiO2 on the ventilator to 70%. Getting rid of excess fluid seems to agree with him and help him oxygenate better, and he has shed a little over 10 pounds of water during the last two days of dialysis treatments. This is good, but what a way to lose weight! Dr. Dhukal, Pop's nephrologist (kidney specialist), will decide in the morning whether he gets to lose some more fluid tomorrow courtesy of "la machine".
As Dr. Greenberg would say, "He's a tough old bird." As I would say, "He's my Pop." Rest well, you tough ol' bird Pop.
He is continuing to receive daily doses of 200 mg of the antifungal itraconazole, but the lab results are still not back with a positive diagnosis for anything. When we met with Dr. Shelley on Wednesday, he said he was sending urine and/or blood samples to MiraVista Diagnostic Laboratories in Indianapolis for testing for antigens indicative of fungal infections. MiraVista specializes in rapid identification of fungal pathogens that are responsible for diseases like blastomycosis and histoplasmosis.
Today is my sister Johanna's Birthday. The best gift our Dad can give her right now is to make progress toward his recovery. Please wish Jay a Happy 25th! (wink, wink)
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We are checking this site all day, every day thinking about all of you and wishing you and your Dad the strength to get through this. We send our love to all of you, please give Carol a big hug from us and tell her we are so very sorry that this is happening and just cross our fingers all day and night for the signs of recovery. Please remember that we are here to help you in any way we can, the place looks fine....if you need anything done, please just let us know. Happy B-Day to Jay! Lots of love from Natalie, Matt & Andrew
The roller coaster is in full motion now. We are hoping for a quiet night and uneventful day tomorrow
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
I have some very sad news to report today. Tom’s wife Carol passed away this afternoon at around 1:15 PM. Carol’s sister Karen had spoken with us in the ICU waiting room this morning and said that Carol was in the final stages of death, and that they expected her to die sometime today. When we went to visit Dad this afternoon, we were filled with sadness about the loss of Carol. The finality of her passing really set in after seeing the hospital housekeeping staff cleaning and disinfecting ICU 6, the room Carol and Tom had spent the last 8 weeks of Carol's life in. The reality of the ICU can be so harsh.
God bless Carol, Tom, and their family.
Dad's renal specialist, Dr. Dhukal, was in the room when my mother and I went in to see Dad this morning. Dr. Dhukal said he was recommending that they insert a "port" into Dad's groin and put him dialysis. My mother signed the consent forms and this will be done this afternoon.
At about 11:00 AM, my mother and I met with Dr. Shelley, the Head of Infectious Diseases at Highland, to discuss Dad's diagnosis, condition, and treatment. The meeting with Dr. Shelley was nothing short of spectacular. We covered all aspects of Dad's case including the details of his condition, what was being done diagnostically to confirm what kind of "bug" is infecting him, and the detailed thought process behind the diagnostic process and treatment he is receiving. Dr. Shelley said he had tried to contact Dr. Richardson in Toronto twice and had left messages, but had not yet spoken with her. We are now reassured that things are moving as fast as they can and in the right direction and we are very happy with the quality of care Dad is receiving.
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At Wed Jun 07, 10:56:51 PM, said…
Love and Prayers to Carol, Stan, Johanna and Lance from the Bowdens. Lance, you are doing a terrific job leading the assault on this nasty "bug" and reporting it to those that are pulling for you all! I loved your pictures in the recent blog. It will be wonderful when Stan is able to read this and see the pics for himself! We pray for continued strength for all of you.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
When we got back to the ICU waiting room, Tom was alone in the room sound asleep, snoring, simply exhausted from his 8 week vigil. He had approached us early in our stay at the ICU and had comforted us, kind of "showing us the ropes" about how a family goes through an extended ICU stay. Tom has been faithfully by the side of his wife Carol for the duration of her illness, and has always been her advocate, her strength, and her love. He is living proof that the ICU holds not just pain, but an incredible amount of hope. Please pray for Carol, Tom, and their families.
Please keep him in your prayers.
Monday, June 05, 2006
Yesterday afternoon I contacted Annie Crossby again to ask her help in finding a contact familiar with blastomycosis and infection by mycological pathogens. She put me in touch with Ursula Bunn, Head Technologist of Mycology at the Ontario Ministry of Health & Long-Term Care, Central Public Health Laboratory in Etobicoke (Toronto), Ontario. I explained Dad's situation to Ms. Bunn and asked if she could help direct me to an expert in the field of identifying and treating blastomycosis and related diseases. She agreed to assist and said she would send an email to Dr. Susan Richardson, an expert in the field of mycological infections, to ask for her help. Dr. Richardson is the Head of the Division for Microbiology at The Hospital for Sick Children in Toronto and President of the AMMI Canada, Association of Medical Microbiology and Infectious Disease Canada.
Dr. Richardson called me today at around 1:30 PM to discuss Dad's situation and the possibility he is afflicted with blastomycosis. She listened carefully to my long story of Dad's illness and possible exposure to Blastomyces dermatitidis, the organism responsible for blastomycosis, and agreed that this sounded a lot like an acute case of blastomycosis. I also discussed treatment strategies with Dr. Richardson and she agreed to act in a consultative capacity for doctors at Highland Hospital if needed.
Mom and I pressed for a consultation with the Attending Physician in the ICU, but he was unavailable until tomorrow or later. This was simply unacceptable, so we pressed for a consultation with Dr. Mark Shelley, the Director of Infectious Diseases at Highland. Dr. Shelley discussed our concerns regarding diagnosis and treatment for Dad's condition and said he would press the lab for enough lab results to hopefully make a presumptive diagnosis of blastomycosis so he could feel more comfortable starting a more aggressive treatment plan. He also agreed to contact Dr. Richardson to consult on the case and discuss diagnostic and treatment options.
For more information on blastomycosis, follow this link to an article co-authored by Dr. Richardson entitled Blastomycosis in Ontario, 1994-2003. Ursula Bunn was also cited for assistance in the lab work associated with this article.
I'd like to extend a special thank you from our family to Annie Crossby, Ursula Bunn, and Dr. Richardson for all the assistance you have given us.
The doctors will be determining Dad's treatment strategy for the day after they complete their rounds. They will likely be removing the Swan-Ganz catheter monitoring his heart sometime later today. Coincidentally, Dad's next door neighbor in Hornell is Dr. Stephan Greenberg, and Dr. Greenberg recalls going to school with Dr. Jeremy Swan. Dr. Swan, who passed away in February of 2005, was a world-renowned cardiologist and the co-inventor in 1968 of the Swan-Ganz heart catheter. His invention, made with a student of his named Willie Ganz, revolutionized heart surgery. The catheter, which is still used today, enabled bedside monitoring in critically ill patients by measuring heart output and capillary pressure in the lungs. This improved the care of patients with heart attacks, serious burns, acute respiratory failure, and many other conditions. Click on the this link for more information including images of a Swan-Ganz Catheter .
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Good night blog. Good night Pop. Good night moon.
A thought came into my mind this evening regarding Dad's possible exposure to bat droppings and fungi when chipping leaves near the active bat house at the cottage. Because of the unusually warm spring, the bats were present in their house early this year and several dozen could be seen roosting when we opened the cottage in April. I mentioned this to the staff and doctor assigned to the ICU tonight and will follow up again tomorrow.
Sleep well Pop. Sweet dreams!
Saturday, June 03, 2006
Even more exciting was the conversation we had with the Attending Physician in the ICU. He said the bronchial wash cultures came back positive for yeast. This is consistent with a diagnosis of blastomycosis, histoplasmosis, and other diseases caused by dimorphic fungi, which exist as a mold in the environment and then as a pathogenic yeast form in the body. The drug of choice in treating these infections (especially blastomycosis) is itraconazole, which is an anti-fungal agent. The pharmacy at Highland Hospital does not have it in stock, so they are checking with Strong Memorial Hospital to try and locate some and once they receive it they will infuse it immediately. According to Annie Crossby, who is from Grimsby, Ontario and is very knowledgeable on "blasto", itraconazole is fairly fast acting and we should expect to see a significant response to its administration, if in fact blastomycosis is the cause of Stan's condition.
We will be waiting for the results from the tests for antigens associated with blastomycosis and further lab cultures of bronchial wash fluid and blood samples before having a definitive diagnosis, but the Attending Physician in the ICU said that for now they are assuming it to be blastomycosis and will begin treating it accordingly.
I also wanted to share some pictures of Channel Man Stan on the blog.
Channel Man Stan and his daughter Johanna, at left.
and at right,
Channel Man Stan Today.
Pop will undoubtedly get a kick out of this post on the blog as he is known to sometimes have a very irreverent sense of humor.
Today the doctors inserted a Swan-Ganz catheter into his heart, which involves the passage of a catheter into the right side of the heart to obtain diagnostic information about the heart and to provide continuous monitoring of heart function in critically ill patients. The results show that the high levels of fluid on his body are stressing his heart, but his kidney function is improving and they will be getting more aggressive with a diuretic tomorrow to help get rid of some of the fluid. Stan is like a big water balloon right now. He has gained approximately 120 lbs, or about 14 gallons of water! This will easily be shed when his condition improves. His liver function is good and he is not running a temperature. They increased the FiO2 level on his ventilator to 65% to improve the blood gas O2 levels. They also slightly increased the respiration rate and his SpO2 is holding at 94%.
The "buzz" of the day was related to learning more about blastomycosis, which has a profile that seems to closely match the pattern of Stan's illness. Stan's respiratory function should be improving by now, but it is largely unchanged and doctors are working feverishly (pun intended) to find out why. I spoke with Annie Crossby who lives in Grimsby, Ontario and is somewhat of an authority on blastomycosis. When she learned all the facts said she felt a tingle and that deep down she believes it might very well be the cause of his condition.
I also spoke with Dr. Mark Shelley, the Head of Infectious Diseases at Highland, and although he wasn't convinced blastomycosis was responsible, he agreed to run tests to try and confirm this. They gathered urine and a bronchial wash sample and sent them to Strong Hospital for analysis and culturing. They also will be running tests for histoplasmosis and leptospirosis, two other possible culprits. The antigen test results (urine) should be back tomorrow and the cultures (bronchial wash) should be ready in 24-72 hours. A positive result for any of these diseases would be more than a welcome bit of information.
Friday, June 02, 2006
Neil Villeneuve from Holiday Cove Marina in Parry Sound called this morning to check on Dad's status and said the weather on the bay was beautiful. He mentioned a somewhat obscure illness that several people on the South Channel have contracted called blastomycosis, which is caused by a soil-bound fungi and typically infects dogs and occasionally their owners. The description of blastomycosis fits the profile of Dad's illness to a "T", so we will mention it to the doctors today as a possible root cause of his sickness. Check the following links for more info on blastomycosis Blastomycosis and Blastomycosis in Dogs in Canada .
I am getting home very, very late after waiting to give a wife and daughter of a very poor family from Russia a ride to the far side of the city. They are in the United States alone and have no means for transportation or support, and Tom and other regulars in the ICU waiting room have been attending to their transportation needs. Now it's my turn to give. I feel numb after being exposed to the impending loss experienced by these people and the fear from the possible loss from within our own family. I'm hopeful for Dad's recovery, but accepting of what may lie ahead after seeing the pain and desperation shared by these families and the grace they exhibited when dealing with the loss of their loved ones. I hope that god will spare us from this pain.
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At Fri Jun 02, 09:14:21 AM, old_yank said…
I can understand what Stan's family is going thru. Both my mother and father had cancer. One of them is still alive and is 91. I lost the other many years ago. God always has a reason ; sometimes it is hard to understand. After reading Stan's complete profile I have no doubt that he will be around for quite some time more. He appears to have much more to do. My prayers are with the whole family.
Thursday, June 01, 2006
The doctors decreased the pressure settings on his ventilator at 1:00 PM (IP 34, PEEP 20 - which is still pretty high) which made his tidal volume decrease to 450 mL. This is a step in the right direction to continue the process of weaning him off the ventilation machine.
Things took an even more bizarre twist when the doctor's announced they had positively diagnosed what was wrong with Stan in the first place. Stan has been diagnosed with measles. Yes, measles! We are unsure at this point what impact this may have on his treatment, but everyone is relieved to know what brought this whole situation on. They have sealed Stan's room and he is currently in isolation, and visitors and staff have to wear masks and gloves when in the room. The medical staff and infectious disease specialists don't seem particularly concerned about communicability because almost all of the general population has been immunized. However, they expect to move him to a negative pressure isolation room in the ICU later today as a standard procedure in these circumstances. Stay tuned for more later!
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